July 2015 – Forever In My Heart Friday

Forever In My Heart Friday (FIMHF), Today marks 2 weeks since my baby girl left us. Not a day has gone by that I haven’t cried. I read her FB posts, listen to her sing the songs she recorded, and even sing with her. I miss the sound of our voices singing together. So to keep her memory alive, every Friday I will find positive motivation that she shared on FB or just memories that we had with her so she can always continue to live on in our hearts. So this post was from last summer. I had hurt my hip and was unable to teach Zumba for 6 weeks. I was depressed and devistated. But Myesha was right there with her sister Chloe, finding new music, and thinking of new choreography for me to use when I was able to teach again. Even when I was ready to give up, they wouldn’t let me. So this is a song that Myesha shared to my wall that she wanted me to do when I got better. Enjoy our memories! FIMHF

I never imagined it would be this hard to find the right words to say when planning a funeral. Maybe because I never planned on my children passing before me. But you see, we were never just the “normal, pick one” type of family. We loved to take a concept and made it our own. To be original. Therefore, I didn’t want to just “pick out” some generic poem, or quote from a funeral home book, for my daughter’s funeral resolution folder. So please enjoy what I managed to put together behind gasps of air and tear soaked eyes…..Just One Peek…

Just one little peek into heaven,
Is all I’m asking for today.
I just want to know how she’s doing,
And heaven seems so far away.

Is she dancing on the clouds with angels?
Is she laughing and singing today?
Is that her blowing me kisses from heaven?
Upon my face, I wish they would stay.

She’s with her father Harley now,
Of whom she longed to see
His arms wrapped tight around her
Oh how I wish she were still with me

If you just let me look for a moment,
To catch a glimpse of her sweet smiling face,
I promise I won’t try to take her,
I know, she’s in a better place.

Just one little peek into heaven,
Is all I’m asking for today.
I just want to know how she’s doing,
And heaven seems so far away…