Month: November 2015

Forever In My Heart Friday. FIMHF. Week 19. So it finally happened. Our first holiday without my daughter. I dreaded this day for some time. I had a lot of time to think about what it would be like without her. I feel like there are so many memories that were waiting to be made that are gone now. A lifetime of memories that could have been made that have been taken by death. But as the day came and went, it was truly a beautiful day. The kids and I, and my family, truly enjoyed ourselves, and I could feel her presence all around us! It is now that I reflect that SHE is what I am thankful for. It’s not that I will ever forget that, but sometimes it is hard to think clearly through all the pain and tears in my heart. Because even though my heart is broken, it is also full of love. Our bond will always be at the top of my list of things to be thankful for. I am thankful for being her mother, and having her as my daughter. I will always reflect on the good times that we had in our lives. Overall, SHE made my life better and she made ME better. Her life may have been short, but we have wonderful memories together. These are memories that death will not steal away from any of us. Memories that I still have captured on camera and video and so many more that I can only hold in my mind and heart. All of which I will never forget. Since the holidays continue to approach, I encourage each and everyone of you to make your own memories and make them special, and make them count. Capture as many as possible on camera and video and take the time to slow down with your busy schedule and capture each moment and embrace them as they come. All too often life moves too fast we take the little things for granted and we miss them. As parents we always dread the fact that our children may pass before us and we always push the thought to the back of our minds that their death will never happen to us. But the fact and reality is, it can. I implore all of my fellow friends and family to take the time to enjoy these holidays with your children, and with your loved ones, and just take a second to just slow down, sit down, and just watch and enjoy these moments because such are the moments that you will be able to capture in your heart and cherish for the rest of your lives! I hope each and everyone of you had a beautiful Thanksgiving as we did! Mommy loves you Myesha Reed FIM <3 F

Forever In My Heart Friday. 17 weeks. On this date today Myesha officially passed her Driver’s Ed course and got her driver’s license. I will never forget when I picked her up from the class she got in the van and was crying. I was instantly fearful that she had failed the course and my heart sank into my stomach. I asked her what was wrong and how she did. She could not respond because she was soo full of emotion. I finally pulled over to calm her down and make her talk to me. She told me she passed. Whew! But she was sad because her dad was not alive to share this moment with her. I will never forget that moment. I will also never forget the moments to come with her as a young driver. We would have so much fun on the road. I would often make fun of her driving and pretend that I was on a roller coaster ride and throw my hands up in the air and yell “Weeee” when we would drive around, lol. It was not uncommon to find us with the windows down, the sunroof open, the music as loud as possible, and our voices singing just as loud as we could driving down the street. Man….did we love to sing! Not only that, we sounded sooo good together! Throw in her sister Chloe Wiley and it was a concert in full effect!! We never cared that people stared at us. In fact, it would just make us laugh and sing even louder! I’m sure that all of Myesha’s friends, whoever had the opportunity and great privilege of riding in the Lexus, could attest to the great fun she would give them in those times riding around in her car! I would love to hear about these moments if you would share those in the comments below it would bring the biggest smile to my face today! Whether it’s the name of a song, or a funny dance that she did, please share it with me! Today I share with you a Vine video that one of her best friends Whitley Spratlen made on one of those hillarious and silly days that brings such joy today! Just hearing her voice makes my heart full! Mommy Loves You Myesha Reed!
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Forever In My Heart Friday. 16 weeks. ASKING FOR PRAYERS TODAY!!! So I’ve had very little sleep due to the fact that Chloe Wiley has to have arthroscopic surgery this morning. She injured her knee over the summer and we have been left with no choice but this decision. Needless to say, we are apprehensive and extremely nervous at this point. They say this is a minor surgery, but of course nothing is minor in our lives anymore when it comes to surgery. More than anything, I know that Chloe wishes Myesha Reed could be here with her today. You see these two girls, even though they were five years apart, you would think they were more like twins. I guess that’s what the bond of sisterhood does. I often laugh to the fact that it was pointless to buy a crib for Chloe because Myesha would take her out and put her in bed with her every night, as if she was a baby doll. It used to scare the crap out of me! Lol! But somehow they managed to make it work. Those two maked it work up until the point that she left this world, even if they were squeezing into a full size bed lol! They say when you have a sister it’s like having that forever best friend. What can YOU say about the bond between you and your sister?? So even though Myesha is not here today, we know that she is our guardian angel and I have been talking to her all morning, and asking her to give her sister a sense of peace today so that she’s not so nervous. But most importantly, to watch over her, the way big sisters are supposed to. I love you Chloe. Everything is going to be fine. I promise! Mommy loves you Myesha. FIM <3 F He said to her, " Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering." Mark 5:34